August 8, 2016
My name is Crash and I’m a detransitioned woman. I blog about how and why I came to transition and then detransition at crashchaoscats.wordpress.com and at crashchaoscats.tumblr.com. I’ve been talking to, hanging out and organizing with other detransitioned women for around three years now. In that time I have watched and helped our community emerge. I’m going to stick to talking mostly about detransitioned women and not touch on detransitioned men because I can’t speak to their experience.
Look, you say you want the trans community to support detransitioned people but you just wrote an article that distorts and misrepresent our reality. It doesn’t help me or other detransitioned people when you spread misinformation about us. You’re not the first trans activist to do so and I don’t expect you to be the last. I’ve been reading the articles trans activists write about detransition for years now…
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August 2, 2016
Folks, I know I’ve talked a lot on this blog about not letting weird stuff people say on the internet get to you. Well, here we go, I have identified the weird thing a person can say that makes me very reactive: when someone says people who detransition are so rare we pretty much don’t exist.
I totally exist! Not only do I exist, but I know a lot of other detransitioned people who are also super into the existing thing!
Here you go, my real name, my real face, here’s who I am. I expect to catch massive amounts of flak for this. I expect to encounter lots of people saying enraging, ignorant things. But you know, it would’ve been helpful to me if detransitioned people had a lot more videos on youtube when I had reached the point of being done with being trans. Also would’ve been way helpful…
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July 29, 2016
(This is a response to this article; I’m reposting it here because their comment box doesn’t allow line breaks, so this way I can post a link to it for anyone else who absolutely cannot read that many words with no lines in between.)
“Where are the people who switched pronouns at 10, switched pronouns again at 25, and found the experience traumatizing? Where are the people who received unneeded medical interventions and were permanently, or temporarily, harmed?”
I transitioned FTM at 16, was on testosterone and had a double mastectomy by 17. I’m 20 now and back to understanding myself as a lesbian, like I was before I found out about transition and latched onto it as a way to “fix” body issues created by the challenges of growing up in a deeply misogynistic and lesbian-hating world. I don’t know if he’s ever planning on using the interview…
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“The early data that has come out about regret shows that there is little to none,” rogue physician and “transgender youth” activist Dr. Johanna Olson has claimed. One of Dr. Olson’s former teen patients writes to GenderTrender about her own experiences and developing thoughts as she matures:
I wont go into full detail but lets just say in pure honesty that i wasnt raised in your typically family situation i once never knew what gay or trans or anything meant. Till i had a bi sexual roommate.
I felt different sure as a girl wasnt your typical girly girl. But id never imagined id end up to be trans one day influences definitly have a bit of an effect on teenagers. I am still currently in the process of really going back into the past and rediscovering the truth of what happened to me i do belive at one point i began to belive in many lies about myself that became who i am. Long story short as a teenager and even young adult i thought i knew it all like every young dumb teenager there wasnt anything anyone could tell me unless i agreed with what it was they were saying. I transitioned as in hormone therapy at age 18. Stayed on and off for quite some time. As i got older things about life became more clearer to me. I think around age 22-23 it was like i was a whole new person mentally as if we went back to the basics of pysch 101
no needed medical degree youll learn that human brains are not fully developed until about the age of 22-23. Hince why i really felt as if life was completly different. I started questioning many things why didnt i listen to my dad he was probably right blah blah blah. I actually went back and forth with my gender identity for a couple years. But not properly taking the time to really discover the truths about myself i still very well felt trans since it was such an ingrained lie and honestly i would also have to say that having gone through years of hormones name change etc i figured i was stuck with that decision and i couldnt go back.
Just recently after months of mental touture battling different thoughts about well i want to try being a girl again but what will my friends say the people i care about will they lash out on me. I had experinced losing friendships last time i tried detransitioning. But it led me to a very dark place where it was either have some confidence and try finding piece and just be real for once with my current friends and if they dont like it than i guess they never cared about me to begin with. Or who knows honestly it felt like life and death for me. I still currently live as luke most of my life and surroundings. But i live by my birth name and gender in other areas of my life.
I have had this topic on my mind so much recently because are we really treating these children right
are they even capable of making such decisions as a teenager or even young adult. All they know is whats in the media the trends going around all the major influence on these topics. But what will happen to some of them when there outside of there little box and they want to experince the world find a partner. Interact with coworkers or the public. I feel like gender identity is just part of life but we put way to much focus on that part of ourselves theres way more to life whether were a girl or boy. Some will realize when there older oh wow no one ever told me id face these kinds of issues in the world or this would be so uncomfortable or hard to do. I do belive some people are legitimatly trans sure but some its just become a trend or something cool that everyone seems to be doing. Were focused on all the kids who are trans and getting them care and not to thoughful about the 1-2 that arnt but are given the care. And honestly i think now with it being way to accessible with so much media like its something cool there will be higher rates of kids who will grow up and realize they were wrong. We wont know now when there teenagers because just remember teenagers are full of raging emotional hormones thinking they know everything about life. What happens when there mommies and daddies tell them its time to fly on your own. I dont know just things i think about.
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September 5, 2015
Blood and Visions: Womyn Reconciling With Being Female by Autotomous Womyn’s Press.
An anthology of writing and artwork by 10 womyn who stopped their female to male (ftm) transitions. Personal stories, political analysis, practical advice, and resources for womyn who struggle with dis-identification from their female reality.
Excerpt: “This process lacks the intoxication of transition, goes back into friction that rubs us raw and makes us feel what we’ve spent years trying to get away from. From this we learn power you can’t pick up at a pharmacy, that’s not made in labs, not made by men. Power that comes from being a womyn, being a dyke, power we’re not supposed to know about; many womyn have been killed or defamed for being wise to it. Power they tried to kill in us or trick us into calling male. We find it in ourselves and each other; in our friendships we find the strength to continue, to think and feel what we were taught was forbidden.”
Glossary of terms:
Autotomous: Describes the ability of an animal (or metaphorically, a womon) to release a part of her body/self and abandon it in order that she may survive attack or injury. Examples of autotomous animals are lizards (autotomous because of their tails), sea cucumbers (their ability to divide), and starfish (their arms). Some autotomous creatures regenerate the parts of themselves they have sacrificed, to some extent. The creature is never wholly the same but in most cases, she does survive.
Detransition: Ceasing transition, abandoning trans identity, and no longer trying to “live as” the opposite sex. This can include actions such as going off hormones, changing one’s name back to one’s birth name, no longer binding, no longer packing, etc. Detransition does not have to include any attempts to change one’s clothing choice, hair, behavior, or other things perceived as gender-markers, nor does it necessarily include plastic surgery or electrolysis to “reverse” the steps taken during medicalized transition. Detransition means stopping transition and beginning the work of reconciling with the reality of having a female body and having survived girlhood. Often used by those who no longer understand “gender” in terms of “identity,” but in terms of patriarchally-imposed sex roles.
Deeply moving and informative for all women concerned about the wholeness of our womanhood — and our sisterhood.
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August 10, 2015
Initially I didn’t even bother clicking to read the unfortunately titled piece “The In-betweeners” by Daisy Dumas in the Sydney Morning Herald because I assumed it was yet another tedious lifestyle post on the young adult “genderqueer” social trend.
It’s actually a pretty in-depth profile of a handful of the thousands of transgender folks who eventually tire of the whole trans schtick after a number of years living in their target sex-role and decide to medically and socially detransition to varying degrees. This is a fairly unusual article because the transgender community responds to detransitioners who speak publicly about their experience with terrific hostility, threats, and harassment.
In the case of sportwriter Mike Penner, who transitioned to his “Christine” persona and then changed back, the withdrawal of support was so severe that he committed suicide. Other public detransitioners have been targeted with years of public derision and obsessive stalking by transgender activists. Mark Angelo Cummings, an FTM activist who stated this year that she no longer believes herself to be “male-brained”, was deluged with violent death threats, including a Vancouver “transwoman” who posted their intention to drag Cummings on a chain behind his truck until dead. Cummings lost the sponsors of her long-running Transition Radio program and was also removed from Lynn Conway’s “Transgender Success Stories” website. Heath Atom Russell, a woman who was interviewed about her detransition for a local cable-access TV show, had her tires slashed and car vandalized, and was stalked so severely by one local “transwoman” that she was forced to get a restraining order. I could list dozens of other examples, but you get the point.
Reversing the transgender narrative is not only a common occurrence, but one that is utterly taboo among the transgender politic, and also, shockingly, among those who have appointed themselves as the “gatekeepers” of transgender care.
When author Joel Nowak of REtransition.org contacted the World Professional Association of Transgender Health (WPATH) for help, he was told that the group, which bills itself as the “world authority on transgender health”, did not have a single resource or drop of information to offer those who wish to halt or reverse the medical or surgical process of transition. Nothing. Nada. Not only did the “world authority” have nothing whatsoever to offer in terms of medical and surgical guidelines or standards of care, but they also had no knowledge of anyone who did. They also had nothing on psychological adjustment or social support.
This utter failure of care is unimaginable in any other field of health. Can you imagine a “world authority” of endocrinology responding, “We have no information on that” to a patient who asks “What do I need to know about stopping my diabetes medication now that my blood sugar is better controlled after weight loss?” Can you imagine if the world authority in diabetic health care said : “We have no information on that medical process and we don’t know anyone who does. We have no idea, and we also have no idea where to direct you for information or care.” Such glaring and irresponsible failure to provide care from a self-described health authority in any other field would be described as malpractice, neglect, or even deliberate disregard. In the world of “Transgender Medicine” however, it is business as usual, with an emphasis on “business”. Read the rest of this entry »